Truth

Judy gave Sarah a letter about the little things that keep vanishing and Sarah was beside herself. She's been taking a little of this, a little of that, usually pills, mostly because without them she gets sick, is addicted, just like Judy, and is trapped in a bad life with shit for a husband, gets mentally and emotionally abused, oh, and did I say "trapped"?
She's in love with me to a degree, and would like to be a lover, with me there and with Judy, although together and alone they are more friends, so I would be the aspect that expands the bed like I'd want. I want more than that to expand our family, because she and the girls fit and complete her life like we complete hers and theirs, and are all better for each other together. But I also know Judy would have a hard time accepting that.
I see why she takes, because she is too ashamed to keep asking and is in need and has no other sources and stays where she is for her girls.
But she needs to get out from where she is, the life she is stuck in, and the best place is with us, and it would benefit us as well, so everyone would win.
Life is still crazy, work still sucks and I still feel trapped myself.
Judy has her digestive system working again, but if everything stays normal she'll be back in the hospital in two to three months again, or sooner.
I just need a vacation from my life.
I think we all could use a vacation.
But I have to fight, and keep fighting....
such is life....