Took Judy to the Democratic watch party. She was so beautiful tonight. I saw some of what the pills and depression have stolen from me for so long back, and it is bittersweet, because I know there are more times she'll run out of pills or her digestive system will shut down from being narced out. But when she is doing decent it feels really good. She was a little sick and came anyway, good for her. It felt good to have my woman by my side... I miss that.
At least no more Bush, but what worries me is the country is so bad right now.
Work is slow, and things worry me, but no matter what, I think we'll do fine in the long run.
That goes for both the country, and crap with my wife once she starts to see things with a few adjustments to her perspectives. She's smart, so I think it will eventually dawn on her. She just needs to fix herself and get healthy, and that, sadly, is something I can't fix for her. She has to make the changes herself. When that effort gets really real I'll be there for her, but I won't be a crutch anymore, and that hurts her and she doesn't always nderstand why I am so cold when she's sick, but even the experts have told me you have to tough love them even wen you want to run and help them. That has been hard, to be cold when I'm not, but I have to or this shit might kill her. She has to motivate. Change is the theme this year, isn't it? I want changes, but I also want my wife back as a real life partner, whereever and whatever that means.