Well, Dan Houston talked to WalMart Corporate and told them I said I'd take 15, and I told him the type of Complaint started at 15, and I had that much in work lost alone, so they are offering to make all the changes stipulated in the settlement, including settlement with Alex...he gets a game system, and I asked the attorney to counter offer 25... so if they don't I;ll take that and still sue Econosweep... and John Winkler, the attorney i know who ran for Court Clerk, will represent me on that, so we'll see how it all shakes out, but I need cash now, so will take it anyway if hey don't bend. That's still a move if I work at it and we sell the house.
Then there's what I want with a move. I have a fair chance of getting a 30K a year job in Fernandina, and that is close enough that Sarah would be more likely to just come along, but I want the Carolina farm, oh, and I want Judy and and Sarah together as well, and not sexually, but living as partners sharing kids and chores and life, because I really think they fix each other and balance each other out. The both just need out of Jacksonville.
I know I'm heavier and older than what is normal, and if I was me at 35 they'd be more attracted to me, but I intend to have enough lifestyle changes to lose most of this weight, and the lifestyle I intend to live would blow them away, because I don't know if they know just how much I love them both, and Judy, she needs to get a grip on her bitch within and make it vanish or I'll vanish from her. She needs to leave arguments out of the bedroom and find things to be happy about and deal with proactive healing instead of blaming and sulking. Nothing else needs to be discussed, we just have to be happy we both have someone who can stand the other, which is the best thing anyone can hope for in life.
I think Srarh sees past age and weight and hairline, and Judy should as well. Judy says she hates me being heavy, but hell, I don't go out dancing anymore, and she never was big on dancing with me like me. Sarah might, but she's never gone to clubs and had kids so early she missed most of that. Amanda would, but she's way too young, almost (hehehe), Seriously, she's got the dance to alternative "tastes" side of me, because I'd love a woman who, if she heard the Cure or New Order or Lloyd Cole would have to dance, almost like there's not a choice.
That's just one aspect of style things I'm talking about. It's like being a racehorse and never being let on the track. Not having someone who wants to dance until we sweat so much it looks like we just fell in a pool is lonely and depressing, because for so long it was one of my favorite things to do, something I just loved that kept me healthy and fit.... Christ, I took dance in college I loved it so much.
I'm a great guy as far as guys go, and Judy takes so much of it all for granted. I don't intend to spend my life with a banshee. The way I see it I have still a lot to give, and can't with her the way she is, but if I can make an environment like I see it anyone of them would be a fool to pass it up. I'm way different than most guys, always have been, and Judy was a mistake sometimes, and a blessing others, but in life you make the best of your choices. I have 25-35 active years left or more and I intend to get my fire back....
I'll just have to see how it shakes out, but at least I can finally get my groove back a little. Money will fix most of my problems. Love will fix the rest.