Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Fatass Wanda says she is retracting her affidavit, which means no factual basis for the dangerous dog determination, so I hope to get that taken care of later today. I don't trust her to follow through though. And Judy has been much better than she was, but not near yet what I think she should be. Kenny cut her hair, and it looks okay in front, but I told his ass to not take more than an inch, and I meant it, and he had the nerve to say that it would grow in faster. Hair grows from the root, and everything you feel is dead, all dead cells, so it grows at whatever rate it does, and the only thing that effects anything is nutrition, and he tried his usual lines of bullshit that cutting the ends makes the hair grow faster, and I could slap anyone who would say something so stupid. He could have taken just a little of the length, but not the 3 to 5 inches he did. He cut it that way because he wanted to, ignoring what I said about it, and Judy with her usual try to diffuse and make excuses for people, Judy who was pissed he took so much length, starts a mini rant on how it is her decision, as if to justify how much he took, when it was her who first bitched about how much length he took.
I'm sorry, and this may sound male arrogant, but if a woman has long hair and is with a man in some committed fashion, if that length gets cut the man has the primary right to decide if and how it gets cut, because he has to look at the woman... and in the same way, if a man grows face hair the woman has the right to bitch about it and make him trim or cut, because she is the one who kisses that face. In a relationship, you accommodate the wishes of your lover.
And if a beard scratches a woman's face or crotch, and she says shave it, you do.... and if a man wants his lady to have and keep long hair, she does. She can wear it up, or whatever, but she keeps the length. And no full of himself, justifying and excusing himself because he's gay and by virtue of that knows, or thinks he knows, how best to dress women has the right to chop off that much hair just because they didn't let him have barbie dolls when he was a kid.
Yes I am pissed, still, because he didn't listen, and he is lucky I didn't keep my word that if he took too much I would shave his head. I was tempted to hold him down and shave off his goatee, and tell him, "but now that I cut it it will grow in faster and nicer".

Judy was trimming the other day, and I cut the length on her muff hair. And I keep my balls and shaft hair free. I know women don't like a mouth full of hair when they go down, but going down on a woman hair isn't as bad, I guess because there's not a mouthful there. Pushing hair aside to hit a clit is a little different than dick and ball sucking where I think it would be bothersome. But trimmed is nice, and the best reason for a short beard. it works well on a clit, as long as its soft and not stubble.
And the long hair on a woman. I don't think I can think of a guy who wouldn't want to grab his old lady by the hair and get lost in it. So a committed relationship gives the man the primary right to it, especially since a woman can't see her hair behind her even in a mirror. It is like being married to a blind person and them having the car painted some color you hate. The blind person has a friend paints it lime green or hot pink, and says "don't worry, it will fade and you can repaint it later". Sorry, that doesn't work. The person who has to see it all the time gets first choice in the decision, period.

Chris can't get any of Judy's pills and it is pissing him off. But I have to control everything, even though I don't want to, because if I don't, nothing I want or need done will be and things I don't want to happen will. Sarah I have empathy for, but she needs to keep her word and work before she gets anything else. I know she gets sick without, but I didn't make it that way, and until she comes clean with Judy in front of me about how she really feels and stops the bullshit I can't be just another crutch. She needs to be with us, and so do her girls, and I think that once that happens that we all will be doing better, and then Judy on 5 and Sarah on three, next month 4 and 2, then 3 1/2 and 1 1/2..... then 3 and 1, then less and less until I get these bitches off this shit, so it stops eating their life and happiness.
And the other thing is how Sarah really feels, because she loves us and has physical and romantic desire for me, and that isn't something she should be afraid of Judy knowing, but something that they should be sharing, and hopefully allow evolve into something even between them sometimes. Admission of my love for Sarah and understanding it has given new power and drive where my love for Judy is concerned, because I recognize what it is I love and what I need to do to be worthy of that love better. And loving one is as easy as loving the other because of what is so "the same" in them both, and exciting because of what is different, and what is different in each I want to share with the other. I think a threesome with them would be fantastic for all of us. It is that wall Sarah has about not wanting to hurt Judy that makes her hide how she feels, and Judy wants to own me as women have wanted to own their men for centuries, or men own women. If she share a little she gets more back, and when she sees that I think, while she might not like all of it, she'd have to admit it makes me better and better to her and life better overall.
I want them both and for Kenny not to touch the length of their hair.

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